and muted in a helpless rage of panic and frustration. No one started processing my loan modification yet, I discovered today, and my disability check makes me just barely ineligible for food stamps. Food stamps...or government assistance...that so humbled me when I first applied meant that I could at least fall asleep knowing I would be able to feed my girls and me, are now gone.
My PD is progressing my hands are shaking and my mind is fogging faster now. I quite possibly will lose this townhouse and its equity in my future. I wonder how I got here in this losing battle. No way to go forward no way to go back. My simple way of living will need to be pared down even more.
How did I get here? What did I do to make this life turn on me?
